| | okay, so i'm switching things up, I'm changing my livejournal to be an AOL journal...i'll post the new address in a few minutes if i actually decide to go threw with this major change to my life..haha, jk...but i will post the new link momentarily. Everyone that cares needs to update their information!! | comments: Leave a comment   |
|  Your Sex Sign is Taurus! You ooze sensuality and lust! You're down for anything, as long as it celebrates the natural body. You're a master at giving head - and as long as it feels good, you'll do it. Even your lover's nastiest fantasy! Taurus, you draw your intense sexuality from the earth. You are strongly built - like a Greek or Roman nude. Your sign is ruled by the planet Venus - giving you a lusty appetite for sex. Sexually, you favor the strong, silent type - someone as comfortable in the rugged outdoors as you are. Intellectual, geeky types don't appeal to you at all. Your home and surroundings are very imporant to you - it's always your place, not their's. While you'd never do a hotel fling, you'll have sex outdoors (beach, grass, whatever) - As long as there is some privacy. You are very oral - a master at oral sex. You love your lover to climax in your mouth. You love any and every kind of foreplay... and you'll do anything as long as it feels good. You are more pleasure-oriented than excitement-oriented. As for weird sexual practices, you are fixed in your likes and dislikes And you are are anything BUT conventional. Your basic, carnal nature leads you to engage frequently in oral and anal sex. Why, you've even been known to give your partner a golden shower on occasion! What's Your Sex Sign??More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I got AOL now, instead of AIM because my Aim is all messed up and stttuuuppiiiddd....I hate AIM...i hate AOL too, but hey, my dad is paying for it so I might as well have it too...i can always go back to using AIM if it doesn't work out for some reason...but hit me up at LimitdTimeOnly8 NOTICE THE "8" at the end of the screenname! i couldn't carry over my old sn!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 001. What is your name?Susan
002. Spell your name backwards: nasus
003. Date of birth: 4/26/86
004. Male or female? Female
005. Astrological sign: TAURUS!!
006. Nicknames: SuZy
007. Occupation? Student, TOYS R US!
008. Height: 5'6
009. Weight: 130 plus some more! hahaha
010. Hair color: light brown
011. Eye color: brown
012. Where were you born? Dorchesta'!!
013. Where do you reside now? NC
014. Age: 19
015. Screen names: LimitdTimeOnly, CrMzNbesos, dolorXesXamor, SueM426 and many more
016. E-mail addy: besoscarmesis8@hotmail.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? nothin' lasts forever, and I realized this when looking at a pringles can.
018. What is your lj name? crimzonwhispers
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? don't have blurty...yet
020. Pets: Pepper, Hershey, Big Will, Fuck Face Magee and the Fuckette
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? um...i don't remember, it was last year!
022. Piercings? 3 on one ear, 4 on the other, one belly button...
023. Tattoo's? 1, soon to be 2
024. Shoe size: 8 1/2
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: skank-a-lishous halter top, tight jeans and Phat Farm sneaks
027. Hearing: LUDACRIS, my baby daddy
028. Feeling: okay
029. Eating/drinking: i did have a bottle of water...can't find it now tho
~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? too many..."I wish you were dead" Brooke Valentine...
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? B2K
123. What's the best cd you own? Guasa Guasa, Tego Calderon...Pain is Love, Ja Rule
124. What song do you absolutely hate? Macarena
125. Do you sing in the shower? not too often
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? "We Belong Together" Mariah Cary
~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink: get the party started on a saturday night
128. Aerosmith: i don't wanna miss one smile, i don't wanna miss one kiss
129. Madonna: LIKE A VIRGIN
130. Korn: feeling like a freak on a leash
131. Backstreet Boys: i want it that way
132. The Beatles: All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
133. Sublime: i can still get high
134. J.Lo: Coz I'm Real
135. *Nsync: dirty pop
136. Limp Bizkit: gotta have fffaiiittthhhh
137. Britney Spears: don't you kno that you're toxic
138. Creed: I HATE CREED
139. Enrique Iglesias: quiero ser tu heroe
140. Good Charlotte: nope
142. Eminem: i'm slim shady yes I'm the real shady
143. New Found Glory: noope
144. Kelly Clarkson: a moment like this
145. Kelly Osbourne: no
146. Mandy Moore: i wanna be with you, if only for a night
147. Eve: i gotta man that I think i'm gon' love forever
148. Aaliyah: we need a resolution
149. Nelly: it's hot in herre
150. Alicia Keys: i keep fallin, in and out of love witha you
151. Incubus: bat your eyes girl, be other worldly,
~Favorites~
152. Color: pink
153. Food: Mac and Cheese
154. Song: Ciara "oh"
155. Show: Fresh Prinse
156. school subject: Psychology
157. Band/singer: Evanescense
158. Animal: DRAGON
159. Outfit: bright colored mini skirt, bright tank top and heels
160. Radio station: Jamn 945
161. Movie: Sleeping Beauty
162. Pair of shoes: soo many to choose from!
163. Cartoon: King of the Hill
164. Actor: WILL SMITH
165. Actress: They're all very good
166. Potato chip: pringles jalepeno
167. Drink: flavored water, or red bull sugar free
168. Alcholic drink: smirnoff ice
169. Holiday: halloween
170. Perfume/cologne: Paris Hilton
171. Pizza topping: barbeque chicken, or mexican taco shit
172. Jello flavor: orange
173. Lunch meat: pastrami
174. Board game: Life
175. Video game: not sure
176. Website: www.thefacebook.com
177. Book: Prozac Nation
178. Computer game: Sims 2
179. Number: 8
180. Cereal: Coco Puffs
181. Comedian: Dave Chapelle, Martin Lawrence
182. Dessert: CHOCOLATE, anyting chocolate
183. Disney character: Aurora (AKA, Sleeping Beauty)
184. Clothing store: Pay/Half
185. Passtime: Love
186. Teacher: Dr. Conboy, Ms. Dacey,
187. Childhood toy: legos, Barbie
188. Carnival game/ride: Dueling Dragons
189. Candy bar: Mounds
190. Magazine: Not sure
191. Salad dressing: Lite Honey Mustard
192. Thing to do on the weekend: have hott hott sex..JK...be with ones I love
193. Hot drink: coffee...warm, not hot
194. Season: summer
195. Sport to watch: basketball? i like hotties?
196. Person to talk to online: EVERYONE! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 
You are a Mermaid, who sits on a rock in
the sea, looking and watching all humanity with
curiosity in your eyes. You have a two-sided
personality! On one hand, you revel in your
freedom and often prefer to live in your own
private dreams.On the other hand, humanity
intrigues you and you love watching on. You are
actually very kind at heart, hating to see
people hurt and despise injustice! You probably
have one or two special friends, who mean the
world to you! Also; you are probably quite
political, wanting to see justice done in the
world. You are quite the dreamer, needing
freedom and personal space to dream your little
dreams. You love to escape into a book or some
good music and just drift away. Some of your
good points are that you are sensitive,
compassionate and a freethinker. Your bad
points are that you may come across as cool and
aloof to others and probably have a tendency to
depression! You are the ultimate dreamer with
a kind, but troubled heart!
Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!)
brought to you by Quizilla
The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are a innocent beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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| | Current Music: | Ja Rule, Last Temptation | | Time: | 08:15 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/angry.gif) pissed off |
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hott and perfect for me, huh?
so i've been a little pissy lately because GUYS just plain SUCK...or at least the ones I get involved with do. because okay, i kinda like this guy i've been fooling around with but he's clearly just using me. which i'm just like whatever about...i don;t really care that he's using me, what pisses me off is that he's telling me he isn't. okay, then why are you insisting that i be called you booty call? that title implies that I'm simply a piece of ass, nothing more...and i like him kinda sorta...if it wasn't for all the times he pisses me off, i'd like him more. like the other day, he flat out told me about how he asked someother girl to hang out and shit and how that made it so i couldn't get a ride with someone because it would look bad...it's like "okay...i respect that you're honest...but still...don't be ashamed of me or in denial of what a scumbag you're being." and he says i'm the one in denial because I don't want to be called his booty call. I'm thinking to myself, no, you're the one denying that yo're using me! i swear, he's just saying that so I'll spread my legs...and the sad part is how well it works because I'm just so depressed about everything. I just want someone to care about me...and I'm going about it in all the wrong ways and I know it. But I just don't know how to change because faking being in love helps me at times with this loneliness I feel..argh...i hate some stuff...mark is my bestest buddy tho...he told me how he understands and stuff, and he's just awesome...I wish he was younger, or I was older, and we could be together somehow. I'm gonna miss him so much when I move....but oh well, it's a new beginning, isn't it? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | last night | | Time: | 10:31 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/high.gif) still a little blazed |
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| oh wow, i decided i had to make a post about last night, it was just ssooo crazy...
so there was this foam party that was awesomely fun...
then i went back to my room and meredith smoked me up...ohh maaaaaaaaaaan...my body felt like it was split in half, and both halves with spinning at different paces. I felt like everything I said or wanted to do was the best ever, like i'm right, you're wrong. I wanted to write because anything i said would just be the greatest ever...i was mad paranoid tho and probably on the verge of a panic attack...everything was circular, if that makes any sense...all i saw were circles, all my movements felt like circles...it was crazy...i've never felt like that. and i threw up in meredith's trash can, which didn't have a bag in it...i feel so bad. but she siad it's okay.
thank you everyone who took care of me!
love you all | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| so today is my 19th birthday...and i think it's up there with being the best ever...everyone knows it's my birthday (thanks to facebook) and is wishing me a happy birthday...since my birthday has always been over spring break, i'm not used to this...I'm used to it being like every other day. but I have decorations on my door (thanks meredith) and when i woke up and went to brush my teeth, cards fell from the door (thanks abbey and kristen)...and cat called me too...it's so nice.
i kinda just with one other person would wish me a happy birthday...but he already did the other day...i can live without hearing it from him again, i just want to hear it.
and i wish jeff was here for my birthday too...he'd make it fun...i miss you jeff!! he needs to call me and tell me where to drop off all the junk he left at my house over spring break. goof ball.
my dad's coming down later today...that should be nice...shopping spree!! and texas roadhouse!!
i'm gonna miss my people up here when I move...i really am...but i need to move onto bigger things...better places...i just wish i could take everyone with me!package everyone up and send them too...oh man...but i can't. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | so i failed yet again...i IMed him to make sure he was okay because my gut told me he wasn't...he seems like he's a little depressed or something...but he says he's okay...oh man tho...this is going to just be an online thing...i'm not going to call him or anything because i don't want a relationship with him, i just want to make sure he's okay. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I knew it was going to end
But like this?
Everything always cuts me
I don't need to cut myself anymore
The world is my razor now
Nobody seems to understand the issues within
I just want someone to hold me
But instead I'm fucked over
I just want the one thing back that was...true
I knew he was a lie, so that was the one thing I knew the truth with
And I want it back
It was so sweet being held in the dawn hours
It was so uplifting being told "I love you"
I just want to hear his voice...
Make sure he's okay
Because when he's okay...I'm okay
I just want to bleed out this pain
Because I can't have him
And I can't have anyone else
Because no one will have me
Not even my friends | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | so life without tomas hasn't been too too bad...it's been...alright, i guess. It doesn't have the meaning it used to, like when I'd wake up and give him a call and he'd say everything I needed to hear. I never felt alone, like I did on saturday...oh i felt so alone, almost everybody left and i was in my room, just crying because i had no one to talk to...i was so bored that I cried, does that make any sense, to cry out of boredom? i dunno...but i did it. a lot of things I do don't make sense, that's what makes my life unique. yea...unique, for lack of a better word. oh man...and i also kno that i'm setting myself up for failure with this current thing i have going on with this guy...we're fuck friends right now...which is all fine and dandy for the present...but i KNOW i'm going to start liking him and then he'll be like "ahh, get away!" and i'll be like "but wait!" and he'll say "no! we're just friends!" SLAP ME ACROSS THE FACE NOW TO SAY ME THE PAIN LATER!! oh maan....but yea.... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:08 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/tired.gif) tired |
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| | so the other day i officially told tomas it is over. I go to him "i can't take this anymore, i just want us both to be happy in the long run and I kno this is the way." And I told him the conclusion I came to about our relationship. That was; I would end up committing suicide because I would have lost all my friends, my parents would hate me and he would always be cheating on me. That's not what I want in my life. I don't want to wake up in the morning knowing that I'm going to die by my own hand someday. I'd much rather not kno at all. I don't want to kno that my future is going to be a miserable one. I mean seriously, I'd have like 5 kids with him and he'd always be sleeping around. I DO NOT WANT THAT. but why do I love him so much? I was crying so bad as I was talking to him about it all, it's not even funny. I was in tears so bad that I could barely talk. He understood every word though, almost as if he knew it was coming. I just want to call him right now and tell him how sorry I am and how much I love him, but that wouldn't be good because I'd be in the same situation I was in before. But one thing that just doesn't fit is that girl that called. She was definitely Spanish and stuff...the people I know that don't like me wouldn't go threw that much trouble to find a Spanish girl to call me and make up some story like that, then call me again and tell me it was a lie but that I need to leave him. If someone truly hated me, they'd have the girl tell me to stay with him! y'kno what i mean? They wouldn't have the girl tell me to leave him. The only person that would tell me to leave him would probably be Al, and he doesn't kno tomas's name. She definitely knows him some how, some way...And she said she got my number from him, he's denying that. He's saying he wouldn't do that, and yadda yadda yadda. But she answered that question way too quick and way too sure of herself for her to be lying. SO MUCH DRAMA!!! ahh, I can't take it! but it's all over with now because I left him. I don't hafta worry about it. He can go be with his little girlies and deny it all to the ones he "loves". whatever. I don't care...who am I kidding? I care so much. I don't want him to do that, I want the words he says to be true when he tells me that it'll take him forever to find another girl like me and that he probably never will and yadda yadda yadda...oh I just can't take it...I wish there was some way out, but I'm in so deep over my head that I the only way out is to just drown. or get rescued by a helicopter...with a hot coast guard guy...mmmmmm...any volunteers? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| okay, so that girl that called be about tomas having two kids, called again. she told me she doesn't really have two kids with him but that he's scum and yadda yadda yadda...so i'm thinking either one of two things is happening:
a) she had some sort of bad experience with tomas and decided I should be warned about him.
b) she slept with tomas and wants him all to herself so she made up this elaborate thing to get me out of the picture because she was jealous when he mentioned my name...
I dunno what to do...i want to leave him, but not this way. I want to leave him so he's happier without me. i do love him, and that's what makes this so damn difficult. all i know, is that I am leaving him. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Ja Rule, Ashanti, R Kelly "Wonderful" | | Subject: | i hate drama | | Time: | 06:38 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/horny.gif) horny |
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| whoa, and i thought things were fucked up before...
some girl called me the other night and told me that she has two kids with tomas and we're all going to have a "get together" to sort things out. tomas is, obviously, denying it...i can't believe this shit...two kids? i don't kno what to think because it like wouldn't the cops have been after him for child support? i don't kno how child support goes...but he always told me how he didn't want to go back to florida because of the mess that was down there. he said it was car bills, and i believe that, but could there have been more? i just don't know...i told him to prove me wrong and he's like "i'm not going to prove myself, I am who I am, but it didnt happen" isn't that a confession right there? i just don't know what to think...i'm waiting for the girl to call me again and i'll tell her to send me pictures of tom with the kids...i have no reason not to believe this girl, she sounded like she was 100% serious...there has to at least be something going on between her and tomas for her to kno me and kno him and all that stuff...to have the balls to do that, there has to be some sort of reason. i just don't kno what to think...and i kinda confessed to tomas how i've slept with some other guys...last night he was like "keep sleepin around. do your thang." and i'm like "you better believe I'm gonna." fuck him...it's just so...i dunno...
i'm trying to make plans for tonight, but i don't think it's going to happen, which sucks because I leave tomorrow to go back home...argh...i just wanna hang out with one of my boyz, but i dunno...i dunno...fitz said to call him later, i did and he didn't pick up...i left a message though and he's good about getting back to me...another boy i like isn't picking up his phone and hasn't since last night, i'm starting to wonder kinda sorta. he doesnt have caller ID tho and I haven't left any messages so he doesn't kno i've been calling...
i'm the devil... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Get Right Remix, J.Lo and Fabolous | | Time: | 02:13 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/sad.gif) crushed |
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| whoa, i fucked up before i even had a chance...so last night i talked to him, and i dunno what to think. I told him a generalization of my past with guys, how i like nice guys but i get attracted to assholes. and he's like wait...who's the asshole? and i'm like are you stupid? you haven't done anything yet...keyword yet. and then we just continued talking he told me how he just got out of a 4 year relationship and doesn't want to start anything because it would be "wrong and selfish" okay, i understand that and i will respect that. I musta made him feel like a fool though because I go "you're talking like i asked you out, I just told you I like you. whatever happens happens." and he's like "that's real" he kept saying i'm real...i guess i am, i dunno i'm just myself...well, that is the definition of real so whatever. i straight up warned him how i'm clingy...but i didn't get a chance to tell him that i'm reformed because of Al being so clingy and smothering...jose is so cute, he's asking me why i get so hung up on these guys. I think i finally came up with my response, i just want to be loved. And Tomas and I, I just don't think it's gonna work out because my parents hate him and stuff...too much drama. I just want a fairy tale where girl meets boy, they fall in love, and live happily ever after. But life isn't a fairy tale. why?!!!
i watched shark tale again last night, and i'm just re-realizing how much i love Will Smith. He rocks! hell yes...
so roary isnt picking up his phone when i call now...i've come to the realization that he used me the other night...whatever, i knew it to begin with. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 02:33 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/frogs/scared.gif) nervous |
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| | so yea, went to cape verdean night last night and looked like an idiot cause i can't dance like they can...but it's all good...i had fun for the most part. fitz was there and i had him give me a quick crash course on dancing...denise helped me too...but i asked fitz too because i wanted to talk to him and i had no other real grounds of starting a conversation...i also told him how i like him...he goes "uh ohh" and i'm like "what? what do you mean by that?" and he's like "uh ohh, as in kidding around," I was like okay...i don't know how to take it. i wanna call him right now coz i just got his number from a friend....but i'm afraid, although what's the worst that could happen? I kno, he yells at me, tells me he's just using me and hangs up. yup...that's it... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | whoa | | Time: | 03:44 pm |
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| | okay, so i'm extremely silly and got his name completely wrong...it's fitz...he seems like such a sweetie too...i saw him today at res, he told me he'd give me a call if he changed his mind about going to his cousin's birthday party. but i think he should go to the party instead, even tho i'm extremely bored and would love some company, it's his family. and i respect that...i just want to go back to last night...it was so fun after the party too...i'm not sure if i wrote about this after it happened last night, but omg...so i got two phone calls, guys askin to come over...so i was like "sure!" so round one, the DJ and his friend show up for like an hour which was fun...then round two fitz and his friends show up....i'm definitely head over heels for fitz...definitely....his friends left him and I alone after like an hour, ya'll can just imagine what happened. oh man...he left at like 5am...i didn't want him to leave, i wanted to wake up with him still there. but it's okay, there's time for all that, whether it be with him or someone else. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so yea, just got back from the mask party (i can't spell the right word for it!) but it was sssoooo much fun, omg, i wish i had pictures of everything, but i'm glad i didn't bring my camera. I was the first and only one there for the first hour and a half, so i got to know the dj...roary...what a cute name! but then these snobby bitches came and were making fun of me...I was about to leave when who shows up? Denise, Sarah, and our friend...omg, I forgot her name, but she's sssooo awesome. I told them what was going on, they said don't worry about bitches and we all started to dance. Then everyone else started to show up. But nobody was dancing...until....me and this totally awesome guy who's name i wasn't able to hear when other people were saying it, started to dance...and i mean DANCE...I ended up falling onto the floor and he just went with it and started humping me...it was great...we continued to dance with each other and other people. and his cousin came up to me and said "I've heard good things about you" and yadda yadda yadda, asked where I was from and when I answered he was like "Oh so is this your first black party?" I said, "kinda sorta yea." Then they left me for a little bit and this guy came along and started to spit lines to me...I told him "I got a boy...and he's here" because this guy was really starting to scare me...so I pointed to chizz (that's what the guy before's name sounded like) while he was dancing with another girl...and the guy was like "that's not your boy" and I'm like "Yes it is..." i was thinking in my head, FUTURE boy...but boy nonetheless...so i told chizz this and apologized for it and he's like "nah, don't be sorry." I was like "aww" and then he asked me for my number and I was like "whoa, i usually ask for the guy's number..that's cool.for real." and we hugged, kissed on the cheeks and said bye.it was such a great night even though everyone probably thinks i'm a whore...i had fun so fuck them. oh man, i'm so happy...soooo happy...
oh yeah, i forgot to tell why it got out early...one of the speakers was eet on fire...yea...that was real cool... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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